Home for a Hurricane

So class was cancelled today because of a 台风。That's a hurricane for all you non-chinese readers. It's been raining non-stop since yesterday and apparently winds are supposed to reach 100 km/h, which is kinda fast. So i thought i would take this opportunity whilst hunkered down in my bunker slash apartment to make a blog entry. It's one i have been meaning to make for a month that was inspired by a dream i had.
The details have gotten a bit fuzzy over the last month but i remember the main point. In this dream i had somehow come into contact with a girl i had dated briefly in high school. I must have been back visiting from China to have come into contact with her. In this dream the girl tells me that she is pregnant. Pregnancy has had a shift in my mind in my late twenty's. No longer do i have the instant flash feeling of, "oh god my life is over and my parents are going to kill me!" Instead i just have the feeling of, "oh god my life is over.” 呵呵 (for all you non-chinese readers that means hehe).
Naturally i did not want to be with this woman nor did i want to have a child with her. I felt a deep disappointment that i would not be able to return to China to continue my adventures and study of the language. In fact, "deep disappointment" is a bit of an understatement. I was devastated and wanted badly out of the situation. I decided that i had made a mistake somewhere in life and i wanted badly to turn back time. I began to concentrate on the exact point, place, and time where i wanted to be. Fierce concentration overtook me and i dove deep into my brain. Amazingly, the world around me began to change, morph, and shift to my desire. I looked up. I had done it! I had bent the space time continuum just like Masi Oka in the TV show Heroes! This immense pleasure was immediately squandered by a single logical thought. I just broke every known law in physics. What i did is absolutely and with out a doubt completely impossible. However, here i stood, the only person in the world with the memory of two possible personal futures. The fact that i was able to bend time and the universe as i had just done led to only one possible conclusion.... There is no universe. There is no Sun nor Earth, no loving family, no Lydia, no pregnant ex girlfriend from high school, nothing. With this realization i became quite sad. The entire "universe" was simple all in my head. Everything that i had come to know that was real and true was just a figment of my imagination. Instead of feeling omnipotent power over my surroundings i only felt alone. And that was the end of my dream.
Trippy huh? This is why i don't do drugs. Because i have enough questions of my inner-self and reality to keep me plenty busy enough when i am sober.
Questions and comments always welcome.